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The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander. 


Its been a tough journey for you and I don’t think anyone else will understand that better than I do. There were many moments of anger, sadness, and constant battles of frustration and because of those moments, your mindset was permanently locked. At that time, I became confused as to why you weren’t understanding “me” but it was I who wasn’t understanding “you”. With the obstacles I had to face and the lessons I have now learned, I understand “you”. You have a right to feel protected, keeping everything at a distance and not letting anything near. You may feel this way for a very long time, and I understand that more than anything, but I don’t want you to stay there too long. It hurts more to hold grudges than to forgive because the anger/frustration inside damages ourselves and the people around us; like a grenade. I want you to learn to accept your past without regrets, to handle the present with confidence, and to face the future without fear. Always look for the best in every situation and don’t live a life with a negative mindset because negative minds create negative outcomes and you’ll miss out on everything good. Remember something, you are a product of your past, so don’t be a prisoner of it. 


When you truly want something and go after it without limiting yourself with disbelief, the universe will make it happen. 


We’re not perfect and we may fight sometimes. But I’m never going to stop loving you, no matter how much we fight or what we fight about because fighting shows that you care too much about the person; its a sense of communication. 


One heart alone makes a single beat. A sound so low that it’s practically incomplete, just waiting to be heard. A heart alone knows not love or tenderness because it feels nothing but emptiness. It searches for its significant other until another heart hears it. Thump, thump thump…It has longed for that sound this whole time, like the timbre of a bass drum. Seeing you, today, made my heart stop. At first, nothing but empty sounds and frozen movements but then up-roaring like a violent storm, feeling its other nearby. It screamed and talked with such excitement that it practically burst out my chest. My heart saw you, its other half, and it yearned to be heard. This heart is real, today was real; everything from the whole entirety of the moment, the feeling, and the sound, thump, thump thump…


I believe that one day I will be where I once was, right there, next to you. But it’s hard, the days just seem so dark, to the moon and back, the stars are nothing without you. Your touch, your skin, your heartbeat, no words can explain the way that I’m missing you. I can’t deny this emptiness, this hole inside me because these tears will tell their own story. I know you would tell me not to cry while you were gone, but the feeling is just too overwhelming, it’s much to strong. So I ask: can I lay by your side? Next to you, just to make sure you’re alright? Cause I know that I don’t want to be here if I can’t be with you..


Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love. That doesn’t mean you love them less, it just makes you love them even more. 


Missing someone is not about how long it has been since you have seen or talked with them. It is about every moment that you’re doing something and you’re wishing they were right there with you. 


I wish I knew why you left, what your reasons were, why you changed your mind. As all these days pass by, I have turned it over in my head, all the possibilities, yet none of them make sense. And then I think, perhaps it was because you didn’t love me, but then that makes the least sense of all. 


It’s you, it’s been you for the bast 365 days. It’s you at 2 in the morning or 4 in the afternoon. It’s you when I’m sleeping, studying, eating, and laughing. You are everywhere and everything…


You’re the only person that ever made me feel anything, like really feel. Even if it wasn’t always the best of feelings, you’re the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in two seconds. You’re the only person that can drive me crazy, both in a good or bad way. You’re the only person that I wish you knew how much I still love you and that I wish you would do something with that knowledge. I wish you would grab me tight and hold me close in your arms and whisper in my ear how much you love me more, like how you always did. 


If you call me at 4am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep. If you need to cry, I will wipe your tears away because you are only human. If you get sleepy, I will let you drool on my arm and I won’t laugh at you if you snore too loud. If you need to yell so hard that your voice cracks and your knees fall, I will hold you up and yell with you. If you get so angry that you punch your hands red, I will ice your knuckles and tell you that woulds heal both inside and out; and just like the cold that is harsh and burning, I will always be the warmth to soothe you and make you feel better. 瓷器,我就是你


I’m sorry but I need to just say it, you’re special to me. You’re the only one who I wouldn’t mind losing sleep for, the only one who I can never get tired of taking to, and the only one who crosses my mind constantly throughout the day. You’re the only one who can make me smile without trying, bring down my mood without the intention to and affect my emotions with every action of yours. I can’t explain with just words how much you mean to me, but you’re the only one I’m afraid of losing “indefinitely”. 


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preservers. 


I miss you when something really good happens because you’re the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me because you’re the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times that we spent together with each other; for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life, you were my best friend.